Life is Tough

Maybe some of you wonder because lately I have been disappeared into thin air....or maybe into another world. It's not really hard to explain why but I find it hard to write here. But now I will write it briefly, yeah.

As some of you already know I have accepted on my first job and started working on early August ago. I know that working means sacrificing more time since you're on constant schedule, but I didn't expect it to be so hard like this. My work started on 7 AM from Monday-Friday, but I have to get up on 4.30 AM everyday because the traffic is so....woah, crowded. Actually it only took about 30 minutes from my flat to workplace but because of the traffic (and slow bus, damn it) it could took until 1,5 hours. The office ended officially on 4 PM, but no one leaves the office until 5 or 6 PM. As a new worker I couldn't leave so early either, right? If the traffic is crowded as usual I could reach my flat on 7 or 8 PM. Because the nature of my job too (as Analytical Method Developer) I occasionally leave the office later than that though, waiting for the instrument to be done or something like that. I'm used to this lifestyle after nearly 1 months now, but now I wonder, is it really my life I? Or is it someone's else that's been forced to me?

Speaking of my flat, since my first salary isn't promising at all (well actually it's more than enough if you live alone but I have to think about my family too--after all, my father has passed away, my mother is not working and my brother will attend a university) I have to rent a very very cheap, standard room with no WiFi connection. It's really different with the one I lived when I was on university (a more decent room, cleaner and free internet connection), although the price is more or less the same (different city, different living expenses eh). And because the living expenses on this goddamn city is unreasonably high, I have to press all my needs as small as possible including buying internet quota. I can still browsing text at normal speed with tethering via Android device but it's really take a long time when you open a heavy image site like deviantArt or tumblr (and it took your patience too, hmmmm). Now you know my reason why I barely active now, aside from the tiring workday.

On the bright side, I quite enjoying my new job because I still have to learn many things and mess up with many instruments xD I'm not the type who can staring at computer, document-stuff for a long time so a little work on the laboratory might suits me. I don't know if I will continue this job after my probation period ends, but I'll do my best for now. I might consider to transfer into another company too if the salary isn't enough anymore or I might be back to my hometown, searching any job that I could do without wasting more living expenses such as rent a room to live (it's all about money after all xD we can't live without money, I can't deny that). I'm more realistic person than idealist, you know.

I still want to do many things aside from my job. I don't really want to get lost on my job and dismiss everything that I need to take care of in the near time, including :
1) finishing my visual novel
2) learning Japanese. I want to take JLPT (Japanese Language Proficiency Test) at the end of this year, but because my mother prohibited me to take any course I have no choice to learn it myself. N-5 level wouldn't be impossible for an otaku like me xD

I hope you guys have a good day, and thanks for reading this